Welcome to Me

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 22:16:31 GMT

holy shit i havent done this in a while i kind of forgot this existed so yeah ill see you folks later

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 06:40:47 GMT

i dont know how long its been i really dont like this livejournal shit but i felt like i should share my night it was bizzare ok first mike comes over at like 12 30 and we had to run out and steal an antenna for cijis car cause hers got bent we stole one and put it on her car and no one knew we stole like three for shits and giggles we were fencing anyhow so i get home and i have a few friend requests on myspace i see one of them looks sort of familiar this guy named ody hes gay. you know that guy that your older brother and everyone in the neighborhood looked uop to and respected and shit every girl liked him like one of those really cool guys yeah this was him wanting to be my friend on myspace i was by no means at all cool like this cat well i heard a few years back that he moved off and came out of the closet i didnt think anything of it but now i do because this gay guy on myspace with pics of him making out with other guys and shit is that guy my homophobic brother and all of his friends looked up to and now hes a total queer and insanely hott too damn crazy shit its wierd he looks so flamboyant but in the same like very tough still crazy anyhow yeah much love CIAO

Mon, 16 May 2005 07:45:40 GMT

i havent updated in a whilw i just got home its like 3 30 am fantasys are weird ever since i saw the life of david ale and listened to his lecture on fantasies im scared i feel like everything i want and dream about is right here within 10 miles of me and i am so afraid to do anything about it because im afraid of having ups and downs. once im there and once its mine im afraid something is going to go rong or not feel as good as i thought or even worse the fact that i may realize i dont want that at all anyhow today was fun fris-be sort of sucked but not a bad day i guess later
Alex Caldwell

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 14:31:45 GMT

(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped class
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your myspace friends
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from myspace
(x) been moshing at a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
( ) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
(x) been suspended from school
(x) been in a car accident
( ) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
( ) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
( ) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in class
(x) ate dog/cat/rat food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(x) didn’t take a shower for a week
( ) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(x) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken
(x) got pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone’s name
(x) slept naked
( ) French braided someone’s hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been threatened 2 b kicked out of ur house
(x) been kicked out your house

kind of lame i did this and im supposed to be movin out shitty deal well bye bye

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 06:47:19 GMT

If you read this,
even if I don't speak to you often,
you must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you!

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 16:51:43 GMT

so yesterday morning my phone took a shit on me and i lost all my numbers so leave your number if you want if not on lj email me at stone_tree.rock.com later
Alex Caldwell

man i suck

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 04:40:20 GMT

Ask ME 3 questions. ANY 3 no matter how personal, dirty, private or random. Just send a message to me with the questions. I have to answer them HONESTLY. In turn you have to post this message in your own bulletin and you have to answer the questions that are asked to you. Oh the possibilities are endless..

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 03:50:40 GMT

I've been meaning to write this poem for a while but i havent got around to it its about the value of presciousness when you realize it but how dumb you are for not or better yet not even trying to recognise it i dont know which category i was in

whats held priceless before dry eyes, is'nt whats there there but body aside
finally dreamingwith lovers eyes, admirations through sinful ties
come one come all make them realize, butterflies lie still but oh the dragonflies

oh, the tint of green
the glitter that sparkles in their wings
the glorious rain that begins to ceize
hearts stop beating with every sneeze

oh the lovely sites they've seen
the luscious lips that caress the mean
but left to doubt in a mysterious rivene
broken dragonflies fall due to a suttle scream

notice now what you take to the grave, share with all to humiliate the brave
but struggle again to try and save, the dragonflies fall that the butterflies crave

oh how sad to watch them go
the faded sparkles nevermore show
the price they held but would never know
the intended love buried as the wings still grow

watch the waves crash to the shore, correlates with the sand held resent, what for?
the sand lies desparate broken on the floor, the waves crash in to find a bit more
confessions that bleed the mind, the heart thats unknowingly left behind
so continue to beat this heart of mine, for what is prescious, im no longer blind

yeah funny metaphires in that i was kind of smoking crack but it really does make sense i swear if you doubt ask and ill tell lata
Alex Caldwell

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 05:22:46 GMT

blah im bored as fuck but im also tired i guess im oing to bed not much has happened lately just hoping this show doesnt suck saturday i will hate life if it does cause this whole week has sucked and fucking up the show will suck too yeah ngiht
Alex Caldwell

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 05:18:11 GMT

this is really weir it actually is mostly accurate kind of odd huh lol but i doubt the wishes come true

• You must tell 8 people about this game.

• ciji is the one that you love.

• lizi is one you like but can't work out.

• You care most about danny.

• perry is the one who knows you very well.

• rusty is your lucky star.

• un-intended is the song that matches with ciji.

• welcome to the north is the song for lizi.

• one way mule is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.

• and emotion sickness is the song telling you how you feel about life

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 05:07:53 GMT

so my two favourite holidays are approaching valentines day being one cause ive always admired people who can express love as easily as they can tie their shoes because i think i have a hard time with it not so much that i cant just that i assume people know but this year will be the first year ive spent valentines day alone since i was in 8th grade oh well i guess its time huh. also the birth of kurt donald cobain is approaching what a hero. i plan to listen to all nirvana on that day so if anyone would like to join me call me up its a sunday ill probably be at home because we have a show the night before i hope both of us can play the show i would feel a whole lot better anyhow it is now oficially ray jaworskis b-day hes 20 exactly 10 months it will be my 20th b-day that sucks im slightly bored if you hadnt noticed ok night night
Alex Caldwell
p.s. if you would like to know if and how much i love you send me a messae and ill let you know ill have to compair with other things in my life that i love since there is really no scale to represent that

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 05:39:15 GMT

man i just noticed the date and time on my lj is right anyhow ive been having fun and not having fun working still not too much money no female no male just me but i realized this year will be my first valentines day since 8th grade i havent had a valentine kind of weird to think about i used to think valentines day was a holiday created by men so they have a day they know they are going to get laid but i have never had sex on valentines day so i dont believe that anymore this year is a very weird year things shouldnt have changed life shouldnt have changedi find myself thinking about stuff i wish i never had to think about like all my dumb ass bills i have to pay i have 2 phone bills, the electric, the water, rent, and car insurance 6 bills a month lets see i pay about 120 for both phones 10 for electric 10 for water 375 for rent and 120 for car insurance 635 dollars in bills a month and with two jobs ill make 320 a week times four is 1280 a month thats like half of my bills but the rest of my money i seem to blow on dumb shit i dont know oh well im kind of in a good mood night

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 02:50:39 GMT

well of course shit never works out like you hope but hey what can you do i just wish i didnt have to work. i dont really have much to say just whats up i guess

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 05:00:30 GMT

well i seem to be having a very good night only 2 things left to do, hope, then sleep so sweet dreams, why do i love the keys so much its rediculous oh well night night
Alex Caldwell

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 19:35:57 GMT

ok this entry is for everyone even mike (squirrell) ciji and i broke up over a month ago and i am for some fucking reason fighting a whole lot of people about stupid shit that doesnt matter so i quit moral of the story is if you dont want to fucking talk to me dont if you do find a way to contact me and if i feel like talkin sure whatever this is rediculous and it doesnt matter i told ciji within the first week we were together im a scumbag so ive already admited it i dont know i insist on fighting to prove myself wrong doesnt seem logical oh well so anyway yeah bye bye
Alex Caldwell

P.S. mike and ciji specifically i dont hate you or even dislike you im just stubborned so yeah

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 15:48:35 GMT

old entries http://www.livejournal.com/users/im_purple/10068.html kind of groovy lots of love then

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 06:15:46 GMT

i know no ones gonna get my back on this so im just stating that i think falling in love with someone while you tell someone else you're in love with them is alot worse than a meaninless fuck what about you?
Alex Caldwell

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 16:29:18 GMT

didnt work today felt lonely came to pops to shower and get my truck so i did this after reading a bunch of really old journal entries i mad i talked about ciji alot more than i thought i did and i knew the entire time she deserved better well i hope now she has better

1. Spell your name backwards: giarc rednaxela llewdlac
2. Have you ever had a song written about you? not to my knowlegde but ive written several songs about people who still dont know that they are about them im sure they'd appreciate it if they did
3. What song makes you cry? alot recently into my arms by TCTC, a Song i wrote a couple days ago, and a bunch more
4. What song makes you happy? none recently playing stockholm syndrome makes me happy
5. What do you like to listen to before bed? anything i like
6. Height: 6 ft
7. Hair Color: Black grown out to brown
8. Skin Color: whit
9. Eye color: blue i think
10. Piercing: had or have now? tongue eyebrow(several times) nose, bellybutton, tragus cartilage on my ear maybe some more i dont know

HAVE YOU
26. Broken the law: Yep
27. Ran away from home: yepp
28. Snuck out of the house: never had to sneak out
29. Ever gone skinny dipping: more than i care to go into
30. Made a prank phone call: i think so
31. Ever tip over a portapotty: with mike yes i have it was damn funny too
32. Ever use your parents credit card: no
33. Skipped School before: more than 10 people have fingers or toes
34. Fell asleep in the shower/bath: quite a few times
35. Been in a school play: yeah grease
36. Girlfriend: not even close
37. Sexuality: recently discovered very straight
38. Children: no
39. Current Crush: GUESS WHO? ciji still duh but its a little beyond a crush
40. Been in love: yeah
41. Had a hard time getting over someone: still am
42. Been hurt: quite a bit
43. Your greatest regret: cheating cheating cheating cheating i suggest to anyman never do it never get yourself to that point
44. Gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: yeah
45. Do you have a job: two
46. Your CD player has what in now: either muse or the music i dont recall
47. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Purple
48. What makes you happy? sometimes ciji and more often music
49. What's the next CD you're gonna buy: no clue really i think slowdive

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 23:06:24 GMT

i am still pathetically in love with Ciji Bryan over this break-up due to a horny night i have lost three friends one of which who was really close and is now doing something i seem to find as fucked up as what i did yet im still to blame. its true none of this would have happened if i didnt have horomones or if i was just smart enough to keep myself out of that position but i do and i wasnt. if anyone has heard the phase 1,000,000 + 1 ask ciji if she even remembers what it is not what it is but how we got it i just want to know if she even remembers anyhow i love ciji 10 to the 6th power. For as long as ive been friends with derak and jason steve has always told me that Helga was the most beautiful woman hes ever seen and how he was soo lucky to have her this weekend i woked on change and i was noticing sex less but i did notice that when i caught myself even a glance i didnt think damn i thought id rather have ciji i know i sound really fucking pathetic but im really hurt not because we arent together but because of what i did and what is going on now due to it but you know im proud of myself i never thought i could actually change myself but i did in a week and you know with as shitty as i feel about this situation i feel better about myself. well bye bye
Alex Caldwell

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 04:22:35 GMT

Hello As usual been a while, you know who likes sleeping? i love it i cant get enough of it but how i wish that was a figure of speach. have you ever noticed how people just love to fucking sleep but they just dont do it i slep about 6 hours a day i feel like i need 10 to feel comfortable but everynight i feel like i should stay awake just one hour longer for something interesting may happen or i may miss the opportunity of a lifetime. man shit. im tired now but i feel as if im cheating if i go to sleep earlier that like 12 oh well its 11:20 now im still tired want to sleep cause i love it but more like afraid to waiste the time. I have been eating a whole lot lately and i dont like it i have been trying for like 4 years to start eating regularly again and jut like last week i started eating like 2 times a week and now i feel once again like im cheating or something its weird i think i have stomach alsars i can drink acidic drinks for too long without getting a killer stomach ache i mean like cant finish a 20 oz bottle in one sitting shitty huh anyhow yeah show on wednesday cant wait really excited yeah so laters

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 07:01:06 GMT

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU ALL FUCK YOUR PARENTS FUCK YOUR NEW CARS FUCK YOU. try going a fuckin day without getting money from your fucking parents try fucking living on you own so keep your fucking comment your sypathy stop calling me and leave me the fuck alone!! this isnt directed towards anyone specific this is for everyne i know but kat and stephanie the only people who know and believe the fucing truth FUCK YOU ALL

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 02:46:15 GMT

ok this is the deal i decided i realy dont give a fuck about all this drama bulshit im not in highschool anymore and i dont have to see any of you every again if i choose not to and the only thing i found that really does hurt me in this whole siuation is that two of my "best friends" helped spread these fucked up rumors that hurt ciji and the conclusion i came up with is that its a someone who hates me or B someone who has a crush on ciji know that she would want a rebound so te people i narrowed it down to are grace cause she hates me kat and i dont know what she thinks of stephanie or nick who seems like he has a thing for ciji and i know isnt to fond of kat and im really hoping im either wrong or that its grace because i love nick and it would hurt me really bad if it was him because i love him to death but what can you do ok so other than that i dont care that ciji doesnt believe me i owe her alot anyways so ill give her what se wants and apparewntly she doesnt want the truth and as for grace you have always had somewhat of a problem with me and i never understood why but hey you dont have to worry about it im totaly out of your life and everyones who was involved in teling the tall tales that hurt 3 people i love and myself so whatever goodnight
Alex Caldwell

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 06:02:42 GMT

man my AC is broken in my house it totally sucks im an asshole i broke up with ciji but she seems to think that its because i dont love her which isnt true just a girlfriend is really unappealing so yeah to start this week off well start with sunday sept. 26 we played the battle and lost to a C_rap group who just yelled ignorant and redundant phrases over someone elses dare i say it music i got lost trying to drive derek home we wondered around for like an hour because the kid has no clue where he lives when i finally did get home 1:30 am i walked inside and less than a minute later one of my brothers friends said "chuckie just got roped" i didnt know what roped was so i naturally assume hes dead so i walk to the location, circle K, expecting to see my brother laying in the parking lot dead onky he was hand cuffed aparently he left andrews funeral and got really drunk and on his way home a trooper saw him the same trooper that arrested him for DUi a couple months ago and he knew that he sholdnt be driving so he pulled into circle k to find a drunk brother of mine driving on a suspended license with alcohol in the passenger seat and not to mention quite biligerant (SP) himself was being seated in the back seat of the pig-mobile anyhow after the car was towed i came home and wen to sleep in my hot ass homestead, the next morning i awoke with aching muscles all over my neck arms and shoulders i brush my teethe put the stick to my lips held the flame to it for a few seconds then i jerked off danny brack stopped by after a shower shortly after the cigarette. i went to class talked to nick, lauren, ryan, and elysia then i went to work ok work is bad enough but at work i found out that a local costumer who i considered a friend killed himself but i didnt get all the details because the fire department isnt supposed to say anything so he tipped us off and gathered most the information from ourselves 2 troopers a fire truck and an ambulance later it was closing time so i head north i got a bit past outback when i got pulled over for a burned out light and got an 11 dollar ticket because my wallet was at stephanies. i accedentally called the officer ma'am im such a jackass. after the incident i continued my sojourn through islamorada and as im crossing snake creek i run out of gas making it across the bridge on the rocking motin i made from the drivers seat only not soo much but after that i skated to marker 88 and used the phone after informing the crew of my brothers unfortunate run-in with the law the previous night stepohanie picked me up and took me to get gas and i picked up my truck.

so in a nutshell i lost a friend a brother a roomate a girlfriend a motive to work hard 500 dollars a record contact and a whole shit load of self respect damn life sucks

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 01:31:08 GMT

ahh life is shitty i hate school no one wants to support my band AHHHH shit fuck yeah love you night night
Alex Caldwell

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 04:59:29 GMT

ahhh so since ive last updated i made amens with ricardo which im glad about but mike (willcox) is upset for some reason i hope he feels better he came in my house at 6 am with nichole and pushed me over so he could sleep lol and im excited for deraks party cause: A)i want to give derak his present, B) Mike is coming home : ), C)i get to play with not only stone tree but michael jacksons third child is also gonna play which i am playing drums i spent two hours last night making a stone tree wallpaper for computer desktop and this morning edd and i made a stone tree aim icon its groovy too you can download both of them off our websit www.stonetree.rock.com then go to the fan art section and dont forget to sign the guestbook while you're there yeah so i had alot of time off work this was good cause i actually had free time and got to spend alot of it with ciji... oh man... that was fun... but it was bad cause i had like 4 dollars in my pocket that wasnt mine for like 2 weeks that was shitty anyhow my brother moved back in but i havent noticed it yet cause he hasnt been here im kind of glad though he tends to act like he runs everything anyhow goodnight i am to retire now and mike i love you and hope you feel better MUAH night night
Alex Caldwell